I always thought that when I stopped drinking all of the fun would stop. Until the fun stopped while I was drinking. Forget fun! That wasn’t even on my radar. I had to figure out how I was going to just live this life without alcohol.
Yikes. Scary. No clue.
I was having a power outage, not knowing that I had made alcohol my higher power. When it discontinued its usefulness, I had to replace that source. That answer. That solution. It obviously wasn’t working for me anymore.
When you’re having a power outage and the lights go out, what do you do? Call for someone to fix it. Go to the source. It’s the same with my body, mind and spirit. I have to go to the source to fix it.
“God, I’m having a power outage. Please help me.”
Those words saved my life.
I was powerless over alcohol—over everything. My life had become unmanageable. Turning my will and life over to God changed everything. God did for me what I could not do for myself. The thing is…it was NEVER in my power. But, I needed to acknowledge that, and then, ask for help.
I did ask for help and God did—help me. He gave me the strength to walk out of the darkness of isolation in my addiction and into the light. Every day. This day, then the next. With His help and the help of others. Not on my own power. Alcohol was separation from God, my power source. Now I have directed access again to that power.
I promise the “fun” in your life will return. Really. I can have fun without alcohol and thrive with others like myself. I don’t have to be in that prison of my own making. There are others like me (and you) in recovery rooms. We just don’t know it yet. We have to show up to find out. Somehow we find each other and give each other that support and the hug we need—
If you are struggling, ask for help. Don’t give up. There is always hope.
Go to the source—pray.
Then, call someone and ask for help.
You are worth it.
“He must become greater; I must become less.” John 3:30
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