I saw this on the internet the other day. So true.
I didn’t realize that by giving up that “one thing”—alcohol—that was between me and God, I gained access, once again, to everything.
Taking the obsession out of the equation starts with humility and admission that I was powerless over the addiction. Giving it to God. Then the powerful acceptance of what my part was in this new journey to “gaining back everything.” Finally, taking the action—
The action being, The 12-steps. They worked like a crowbar prying into my dishonesty to get to what I was hiding. The stuff that kept me stuck in no growth. The Steps helped me to see my lack of awareness of certain behaviors that were not serving me anymore, identify them and begin to change those behaviors.
I love this final paragraph in the Big Book of AA (page 164)
“Our book is meant to be suggestive only. We realize we know only a little. God will constantly disclose more to you and to us. Ask Him in your morning meditation what you can do each day for the man who is still sick. The answers will come, if your own house is in order. But obviously you cannot transmit something you haven’t got. See to it that your relationship with Him is right, and great events will come to pass for you and countless others. This is the Great Fact for us.
Abandon yourself to God as you understand God. Admit your faults to Him and to your fellows. Clear away the wreckage of your past. Give freely of what you find and join us. We shall be with you in the Fellowship of the Spirit, and you will surely meet some of us as you trudge the Road of Happy Destiny.
May God bless you and keep you - until then.”
My sponsor pointed out to me that it wasn’t as you “trudge the road TO happy destiny— it was “trudge the road OF happy destiny.”
Trudge: a steady cadence.
One day at a time. One truth at a time.
I came to recovery to save my butt—and figured out my soul was the thing being saved.
“If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sin and will heal their land.”
2nd Chronicles 7:14
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